What Kish wore today : It's Gonna be Okay.

WEDNESDAY.

Today, I woke up late because I slept late. That made me almost late and I hate it. Tried to fight bad vibes and to make bawi by doing good in my calls, but I don't know if the bad vibes is just chasing me because most of my callers are either not that techie or their computers are as slow as my brain yesterday, which was very sabaw yesterday (ι´Д｀)ﾉ. 

E sabe nga nila, 'There's a rainbow always after the rain..' Thank you God because yung linya sa shuttle today is not long, and there was no traffic. ∩(︶▽︶)∩ yahoo!

Lesson:

There's 24 hours in 1 day. It doesn't mean that when you have a fucked up 10 hours, means the whole day would be bad. Think positive, There's still 14 hours left. Don't wait for something good to happen, Do something.

Watchup || Pants || Shoes || Top

Today's problem might have been solved by what happened yesterday.

Today's problem might have been solved  by what happened yesterday. Tomorrow's question might have been answered by what happened the other day, And Next week's surprise might have been seen by what happened Last Month. In short, Life teaches us lessons about life everyday, And those simple lessons about life that you've just learned today might just be a key to a question that would pop up on your head tomorrow. 

Starting today, I should list down the things that had happened to me for the day. I would open up my eyes, heart and mind so I'd get to see big things on such small detail, and at the end of the day, I know that by listing down those things, I'd be able to see lessons that today has taught me.

I'm doing this because I want to look on the brighter side of things. Listing down the things that had happened would make you think of the reason why such things happen. If you've had a bad day, you'd be stuck on having a bad day if you would just focus on the negative thing that had happened to you.  Convert it to positive by thinking of the reason why this happened and what you need to do so it won't happen again.

Last week:

I was late and was so fucked up because my boss said that I'd be terminated if I'd ever be late again.

I ended up crying so bad because I don't want to lose my job. He talked to me and made me realize that

this job is what's feeding my son and that I should be more responsible. He still gave me another chance

but I got suspended.

Lesson:

Once is enough, Two is too much. People get tired of giving chances. 

Even if people don't want to, they let go off things because It's hard to keep getting a person's attention

 if he doesn't care. So if you don't want  people to let you go, show them that you care.

{ spoonful of positivity and ootd }

Top: H&M {Thrifted}, Black Tube 

Black High Waist Pants {Thrifted} 

Shoes, St. Francis

Top: Checkerd long sleeves {Thrifted} 

Brown Pants, St Francis

Shoes, St. Francis

Top: Maong Polo {Thrifted} 

Black Leggings, SM Dept. Store

Shoes, St. Francis

Live your dreams ❥

Positivity all the way!

I love being positive, although there are really times that I feel so down. I let myself cry and be down and feel sorry for a while, But I'll climb my way up to that positivity ladder. I like sharing positivity cause I really love being on a very rainbowish vibe, Full of colors, full of happy people. :) That's when I thought of giving my ootd posts (Outfit of the day posts) a twist. Something that shows what I love to do, and would bring smiles and good vibes ;)

I created an album on my facebook account  OOTDS, CHIBI ME & POSITIVITY! wherein I post all of my ootd's with positive quotes / bible verses captions. Got alot of likes. And I'm happy that people liked it and I hope that those quotes somehow reached their hearts and souls and I hope that It helped them feel better and feel more positive :) And for those who doesn't have facebook ,  has not added me yet or just don't want to add me, these are some of the photos and quotes that I've uploaded ;)

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So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10

Happiness is an attitude. We either make ourselves miserable, or happy and strong. The amount of work is the same. - Francesca Reigler

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An optimist sees an opportunity in every calamity; a pessimist sees a calamity in every opportunity."
Sir Winston Churchill

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"When you are asked if you can do a job, tell 'em, 'Certainly I can!' Then get busy and find out how to do it." -Theodore Roosevelt

And for those who's currently feeling down.. Cry. Let yourself be down for a while. It's not bad to be sad or mad or be negative. It's bad when you let those negative feelings eat you alive. But make sure that after a day  or two, learn to move forward and look at the brighter side of things. Let it be a lesson, and remember these:

Somedays, You just have to create your own sunshine.

Spread Positivity! 

ALWAYS LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE

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"ALWAYS LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE

NOT LIKE YOU HAVE A CHOICE;

THERE IS NOTHING TO SEE IN THE DARK ANYWAYS"

I made a drawing to remind myself and other people who's hasn't been looking on the brighter side of life.

I know it sometimes is hard for people to look on the bright side when you're super down. Sometimes you feel stuck, alone and helpless. Do not keep it inside. Talk to someone you know personally. Talk to someone that won't just give you advice but knows how to listen as well. Talk to someone that's one sided. You can cry all you want and be a total mess but make sure that by the end of the day, you would still be able to smile, thank God and look at the brighter side of life.

START YOUR WEEK RIGHT EVERYONE! 

HAPPY MONDAY!

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Anger Management

I am not okay and that's why I'm blogging. I promised myself to never again lose self control. I don't know if you have felt this kind of feeling that you're just so mad and you're just so sick and tired of it and you just want to not be mad. It's just like you want to scream but you're not allowed to. It's like you're being tortured inside but you're trying to be strong. I'm mad and I'm trying to control it. I'm mad and I just don't want to be mad. I don't really know. Earth has been producing lots of people who wants to pull you down, God has been giving me so much test in life lately and I just want to pass. There's just this people who just can't resist making other people stressed. So i'm locking myself just to keep my promise. I just don't want to hate anymore. For hatred really is just a useless emotion.

Maybe, It's just so hard for me to release hatred and anger because I'm such a boring person, living a simple life and is happy with simple and small things. I can just sit around a corner and doodle. I can just lay myself in bed for 24 hours reminiscing happy thoughts. I can hangout with my friends but i sometimes choose not too because i don't want them to be sick of me talking about how i feel. I just don't want to share these negative feelings inside with those people living in a positive world.

I know it's still early to write down what i've learned for this day because it's just 4pm and there's still 8 hrs left before the day ends and that something else might happen, but writing this blog post somehow lessen the hatred and anger i'm feeling. So here are my realizations:

Always pray when you're mad.

I prayed for god to help me move on with this feeling. I prayed for positivity and I thank

him for letting me experience this feeling for It gives alot of realizations.

Never be afraid to cry.

I was trying to not cry for I want to tell myself to be strong, But not crying just means I'm weak.

It's a form of letting go. If you don't want to curse,If you don't want to hate and do not so good things then just cry. It's better than posting your hatred out on facebook.

Never ever keep it inside.

I'm currently sick and i feel more sick because i was keeping it inside.

If i can't tell people how mad and sad i am, then let your mind speak through writing or blogging.

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I am feeling better now. Not super better, though But i'll know

I'll get there. One step at a time.

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S O M E D A Y S

YOU JUST HAVE TO CREATE YOUR OWN

S U N S H I N E

Up up and away!

March started with me winning awesome prices because of my hobby, which is blogging. It started "Okay". Now, the Okay road is bringing me somewhere dark, A dead end. But i won't complain. This is part of life. This is one of God's plan and this is one of those millions of test I need to take. This is like those types of bad tasting medicine when you're sick, that you need to take to make you feel way way better. Today, I just need a good rest, and good sleep and an awesome mind set, then I would start my journey to the positivity land. :)

I had a pretty good cry and realization earlier. I know I've had such big mistakes that led me to this. Mistakes that God wanted me to commit because I need to learn. I realized that I'm such a bad person when I'm mad. I lose the happy me, I let go of my brain and I don't think before I speak.. In short, I lose self control. Now I know that i should keep my mouth and my head shut so my brain won't go elsewhere, So that I'd still be able to think before I do and say anything. I also realized that I lost my respect and love for myself which is very important. I learned that people should love themselves first. Cause If you love yourself, You'll trust and respect not just yourself but others as well. Now I need to be a better me. I don't want these things happen again. I don't want to cry no more.

Starting today, I would list down positive thoughts and feed my self with positive energy. Then, I would share it with others. Starting today, I would not lose self control and would think before I speak so I won't end up hurting anyone. Today, I won't punish and hurt myself. I would love myself first, So i could love and respect others. Today, I'd be a better me. A better mom. A better friend. And would focus on my goals in life.

“Get going. Move forward. Aim High. Plan a takeoff. Don't just sit on the runway and hope someone will come along and push the airplane. It simply won't happen. Change your attitude and gain some altitude. Believe me, you'll love it up here.” 

- Donald J. Trump